I’m often asked “Why did you develop Piano Portals – what's the back story?”
In 2012, I gave my first full piano recital from memory in 19 years.
In 2013, aged 34, I worked out my first pop cover by ear and posted it online.
In 2015, I birthed my own piano style and recorded an EP for the first time, Joshua's Fire.
The same year, I compiled and recorded Piano Portals - a radical, holistic daily practice for pianists which was over a decade in the making. I launched the original product at Music Education Expo, London, in 2016. In 2020, I was invited to return as a speaker.
I'm Stephen Marquiss, creator of Piano Portals. At the time of writing, I feel satisfied with my piano playing, which feels like a dream come true. I play expressively and joyfully. I learn my chosen repertoire efficiently through flowing, fail-safe processes. I perform it confidently from memory. I credit Piano Portals with this transformation.
In the '90s I received just about as much music education as possible. I won a scholarship to music school before reading Music at Cambridge University.
In my early school days, I won the prize for the highest piano exam mark in the country and reached the final of an international piano competition. My teachers were caring and dedicated. I did everything they asked, and was labelled an exemplary student.
How, then, could my playing deteriorate to such an extent that I became their first A Level (Grade 12) Music student in living memory to sit a theoretical paper in place of a performance? I struggled with so-called Repetitive Strain Injury and mental blocks throughout my later school years. I was met with puzzled expressions from specialists, who tried diverse treatments. My self-esteem plummeted. When I left school, I felt like an empty shell - disembodied as an artist and person.
At university, I became chronically jealous of other musicians, particularly jazz players who seemed so confident and expressive. They were the opposite of me - and I longed to be like them.
After a while, the nurturing bubble of university invoked the beginnings of a personal journey. I began scouring libraries and the internet in search of solutions. I investigated piano pedagogy, the ergonomics of playing, early years’ learning and peak performance. In my final year, I prioritised this quest over my coursework, earning the disdain of some tutors.
Regarding piano pedagogy, I found multiple variations on similar themes. Approaches that seemed different at first revealed themselves to be underpinned by common fundamentals. It was hard to find anything strikingly outside of the conventional box, which I felt had let me down. That was until I stumbled upon Abby Whiteside.
At first, I sought to repudiate her audacious claims. Over time, they blew my mind. Whiteside's solutions were daring in the extreme. They challenged the very fundamentals of the pedagogy I'd known. I contacted the publishers of her essays to find out whether anyone was teaching according to her radical principles.
As a result, I made several trips to New York to study with Sophia Rosoff, co-editor of Whiteside’s writings and a former Whiteside student. This was the first step towards Piano Portals. In time, I would further question long-held assumptions in piano playing and make an even greater departure myself.
After I graduated, I entered the real world with a jolt. There seemed no easy way to preach the New Way of piano playing. I taught adult clients privately whilst working part-time outside of music. Little did I realise just how far I was from integrating my discoveries into my own playing, teaching and being.
Over the course of a decade, I forged a career in my native Somerset, England, as an accompanist to some of the country's finest musicians, piano teacher at the prestigious musical department at Hazlegrove Preparatory School, founder and conductor of Frome Symphony - a ground-breaking amateur orchestra - soloist and ensemble member. My own piano progress took a back seat.
I was fortunate to work in a field I loved. But below the surface lurked dissatisfaction with my piano playing and resentment that, despite such a privileged education, I still felt relatively awkward and disconnected when I played. Technical difficulties remained, alongside a mental block about performing from memory. More than anything, a feeling of chronic dissociation underpinned my musical endeavours, even if I was the only one to notice it.
When I hit 29, I acknowledged that I’d barely scraped the surface of the issues surrounding my piano playing, which stretched back to school. I recommitted.
I began passing on my public work to others and refocusing on the piano. I determined to sort these issues once and for all and also one day to help others like me.
The music for Piano Portals emerged as early as 2008 and remains largely unchanged. But nothing could've prepared me for the personal journey that unfolded, through exploring, refining, recording and finally sharing the work, which took the large part of another decade.
One revelation followed another. I reconnected with my body through deepening self-awareness. I became focused, coordinated and confident. I became not just the musician but the expressive, connected person that I'd longed to become.
Technical difficulties dissolved as I refocused on fresh priorities. I remodelled and reoriented my entire approach to practice, throwing out much that I'd previously believed important and replacing unhelpful processes with effective new ones. I genuinely enjoy every moment of my practice - not because I can suddenly do everything straight away, but because I trust in gratifying processes that never let me down. As I said above, I play my chosen repertoire to my own satisfaction, fluently and expressively.
Piano Portals is transforming the playing and lives of a growing number of open-minded pianists and teachers around the world who summon the courage to challenge assumptions and taste the power of fresh priorities.
Piano Portals was born out of an adult journey - a tireless quest. In my early 30s I was still a long way from playing to my potential. But I kept seeking, questioning and learning. I bring the perspective of this personal evolution to the Piano Portals resources. Why not explore them yourself, and see whether they might just offer a fresh vantage point from which to redress any difficulties you might be experiencing in your playing?
Thanks very much for reading. Please do be in touch and share your journey. It's my dream that Piano Portals also helps you achieve yours.